We can justify any apologia simply by calling life a successive rejection of personalities. No apologia is any more than a romance - half a fiction - in which all successive identities taken on and rejected by the writer as a function of linear time are treated as seperate characters. The writing itself even constitutes another rejection, another "character" added to the past. So we do sell our souls: paying them away to history in little installments. It isn't so much to pay for eyes clear enough to see past the fiction of continuity, the fiction of cause and effect, the fiction of humanized history endowed with "reason." - V.

October 28, 2006

The crystal groove of this shimmy-shack shakes and withers - an expression of non-linearity, words connected not by natural progression but only by a rough proximity. Can an overall order emerge from such disjointed particles? Convergence seems inevitable as these words inhabit a rough geography of neighborhoods in the functional anatomy of a brain. Patterns tend to form more often than not. Synchronization is endemic to this particular aggregations of particles and interactions - diverse universe, 2 = 1. Symbiosis creates optimal efficiency by experimenting with bridges between farflung distances. Remix and cut it up again. Burroughs didn't invent meiosis. Just throwing it out there. No point is intended. Unification of thought is not a parameter of this exercise. Running for the sake of the run, this apologia stares at blank walls moving across heartthumps and ragged breaths. Words they use: "direct support personnel," "consumer" "normalization." I enforce artifical routines on creatures of frightful inertia. You learn very quickly to not fight momentum. Gently redirect. This is blue pill time, now it's time for the white. Start again. Listening is a mode of transformation. I jam with words and concepts. Wikijam - that makes a sandwich. Symbiosis of preservatives. Creating hits starts with banging these rough beats. Fire across action potentials, plan no further then the moment that right foot follows left. This is the left channel. This is the right channel. Stereoscope down. The watership rises to repeat the cycle - faithful as an iron lung.

October 22, 2006

I'm living a disconnected life. Disconnected from wireless and cables, my internet existence is frightfully nomadic. Otherwise I'm quite happily engaged in the daily business of breathing and walking. I just don't get the chance to tell you about it as often as I would like. Did you miss me? Did you notice?

I'm an empathetic spore waiting until the climate is right to bloom into fungal growth. Yesterday at work I danced around an old woman for fifteen minutes with a spoonful of applesauce singing a song about how good it feels to eat. I wouldn't lie, not in verse. And when she finally took a bite, I swelled with the kind of triumph the astronaut must feel when successfully docking at the International Space Station. (Which is exactly the imaginative metaphor I used. "Houston, we have penetration!") A spore is a reproductive structure that is adapted for dispersion and surviving for extended periods of time in unfavorable conditions. I crack jokes in a fourth grade vocabulary; humor is the most effective way to dissipate negative energy. Oh and why dissipative structures as a framework? Because it's an ethics of ratios. Do the most good while causing the least harm. Dissipate the most energy from the overall system! Burn bright, but burn clean. Sustainability is that, and so art thou.

Once conditions are favorable, the spore can develop into a new organism This is known as the alteration of generations. Certain lifeforms, such as the fungus, have a lifecycle composed of at least two distinct genetic phases. Fungal mycelia are typically haploid - which means they only have a single chromosome set, as opposed to humans which except for their gametes(spermies and eggies) are composed of diploid cells, which bear a pair of homologous chromosomes. When two mycelia of different mating types meet, that is when they perceive a difference in the other, they form what is called a mating bridge. Nuclei cross this bridge from one mycelium into the other - they call this plasmogamy. Now pay attention to this, because this is important: actual fusion of the two nuclei(a process called karyogamy) within a single mycelia forms a diploid structure which become the sporophyte. The sporophyte is the center of spore production and of sexual reproduction, the intermingling of codes through meiosis which produces a new generation of spores. The spore then grows in the next mycelia. The whole cycle is considered one generation. Their chief advantage is that, of all forms of progeny, spores require the least energy and materials to produce. I am a spore becoming mycelia.

September 14, 2006

Tidings from a small corridor of the Mind-at-Large. This here is the new representation of an old entity, a scattered firing of the conglomarate of neurons and squishy matter formerly known as chronictronic. Changes of character are necessary to sustain and evolve the narrative of what would only appear to be a differentiated ego. Not that this is a radical reinvention of this self. The self continues to evolve, the handle has merely become sleeker, sexier, more sustainable to reflect that progress. Which is to say, chronictronic has gone and graduated. This new student is learning about what it means to survive outside of certain familiar structures. I'm learning what learning is. An appearance will be made soon to your space-time locale, but in the mean between then and now I offer my services as gnome to this digital community. Links will be dropped, ideas exchanged, and recent changes watched. Til then.

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